I've been tested and tried this past few weeks like non other. It seems as though the devil just loves to torment my weakness. Addictions are so ridiculous. Through out this I've felt the need to read Romans 8 every night before bed. It's not the whole chapter but the first section in that chapter. For those who know Romans 8, you know it's a pretty significant chapter. I've posted the section below...
Romans 8 (NIV)
Life Through the Spirit
1Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus,[a] 2because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death. 3For what the law was powerless to do in that it was weakened by the sinful nature,[b] God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful man to be a sin offering.[c] And so he condemned sin in sinful man,[d] 4in order that the righteous requirements of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the sinful nature but according to the Spirit.
5Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires.6The mind of sinful man[e] is death, but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace; 7the sinful mind[f] is hostile to God. It does not submit to God's law, nor can it do so. 8Those controlled by the sinful nature cannot please God.
9You, however, are controlled not by the sinful nature but by the Spirit, if the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Christ. 10But if Christ is in you, your body is dead because of sin, yet your spirit is alive because of righteousness. 11And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit, who lives in you.
12Therefore, brothers, we have an obligation—but it is not to the sinful nature, to live according to it. 13For if you live according to the sinful nature, you will die; but if by the Spirit you put to death the misdeeds of the body, you will live, 14because those who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God. 15For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship.[g] And by him we cry, "Abba,[h] Father." 16The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God's children. 17Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.
Through this I think I am learning, we will sin, we will do bad things, we will do things that seem uncontrollable to us, but the trick is to stop feeling so guilty! It's hard, and I am fighting that same aspect myself. But as you see in Romans 8 we are slaves to sin, sin is making our decisions. We must realize that we are human and it's how we respond to our mistakes that changes us and makes us who we are. It's so hard. I can get so frustrated with myself regarding the choices I make, but if I start to feel guilty it only gets worse. We just have to keep on trying and trying again.
Ladies & Gentlemen, the ONLY way we can get out of this is THROUGH Jesus. We can not do this, hence why it says in Galatians 2:20 that we must be crucified with Christ, so that WE are dead, and CHRIST is the one who is living in us. When He lives in us, our wants will be sacrificed. Thus becoming a slave (an extremely well-treated slave) to Christ verses becoming a slave to sin, where we die and get treated very horribly I might add. Choose you this day whom you will serve.
I say this as not a person who's overcome my addictions but as one who is learning everyday and fighting to become free. As one who is trying to follow Christ even though I fail at times. I am in the midst of my struggles and definitely not a perfect person.