Thursday, November 26, 2009

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving Day everyone! I hope everyone is doing well on this very thankful day. 

I am hanging out in Sioux Falls with my parents, my sister, her husband and son.  We're having a great time watching ice scating on TV and we just finished eating a slice of Melissa's Pumpkin Pie with cinnamon ice cream on the side. 

I'm thankful for everyone and for everyday that my God has given me.  Thank you to my family for all the support you've given me and to all my friends who have been such a help to me. 

And most of all, Thank you to my Father, God.  With out you I couldn't even live right now.  You've blessed me beyond messure. 

Have a great Thanksgiving everyone!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Death And The Thoughts That Go With

Lately it seems that more and more bad news has just erupt everywhere. It's got me really thinking, mainly about death and the power of healing that God has given us. It seems that more and more people are just becoming sick and are going to die. Two of my friends have just recently passed away due to cancer. There are more and more bad news everywhere especially with members from my own church family. To me it's got me confused. We've been praying and praying for these people for so long and we pray for healing for them but no healing seems to come. They eventually are eaten away from the morbid disease and their life is brutally taken from them. Another one of my friends has recently been hospitalized due to complications of Pneumonia (description in the previous post). I received an email last night that the outlook is not looking good and they are not sure he will make it through the night. (I haven't heard of his outlook today yet) This makes me extremely sad. The whole church has been praying for him to get better since we first heard of his hospitalization 2 weeks ago. This leads me to thinking, "Why is it that no one seems to get healed anymore? Why was it that in the bible God healed all those people around them and when He left for heaven, He gave us that same power to heal people but yet no one seems to be receiving that healing?" There's plenty more questions that arise as well. After all, God did say we have that authority to cast out demons and heal the sick. Maybe it's just me or the place I am in, but I don't see that anywhere. These thoughts have also brought me back to a story in the bible where the disciples couldn't seem to send the demon out of a boy so they brought him to Jesus. Jesus of course was able to do it in a heartbeat. The disciples then asked, "How come we weren't able to do that?" Jesus then replied, "Because you have no faith." Is this true now-a-days? Do we really have no faith anymore? I think it must be. Is it really that unfathomable to us that someone dying with cancer can be completely restored through Jesus Christ? I've thought I've had faith. I believe it can happen. After all, Jesus has done it before so He can do it again. There must be a really fine line between faith and not having faith I think. I've believe we are also to submit to God and know that whatever happens, God has a plan for us, that good will come out of the bad. So we are faced with the decision to submit to God and have faith that God knows what He is doing and that His will should be done in this circumstance. But isn't Faith believing 100% that the unbelievable WILL happen? And if Faith and Jesus are the only ingredients we need to provide miracles, how are we supposed to believe that the event will happen and yet fully as well believe that God may have a different plan and allow the other circumstance to happen? I don't know if I am making sense or not. But these questions have been juggling around in my mind for the past few weeks now. Maybe one of you have might have the inspiration to share what your thoughts are? Please do so if you feel lead. I'm always curious to see what other may think. 

On a much lighter note.  If I don't get to before hand, I wish you all a very merry happy Thanksgiving!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Urgent Prayer Request For A Friend!

I have a friend in whom I really would like to ask your prayer requests for.  He's critically ill and has been in intesive care now for 2 weeks.  He has Pnuemonia very bad and as a result ended up with Acute Respiratory Distress Syndrome.  They may have found blood clots in his legs due to the lack of inactivity.   He's being sedated to allow his body to heal and also has a ventilator to pump 100% pure oxygen in his lungs.  I believe he is not ready to go to heaven yet.  I believe he will be healed.  If you guys could take the time to just pray for him it would be much appreciated by his whole family and friends.

If you want to take a look at his Caring Bridge website, I've attached the link below. 

God is our Healer! All things are possible with Him!!! Remember what Jesus said? If we have faith as small as a mustard seed we can move mountains!! Please believe in his healing with me today!

THANK YOU SO MUCH!! May you all be blessed!


God Will Make a Way

Another song but I just love the words to this.  It's so vital that we remember this message.

God will make a way,

Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way.

By a roadway in the wilderness, He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today.

God will make a way,
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way

Monday, November 23, 2009

My Prayer Request

Well it's the Holidays, and it is officially the WORST 2 months for "morbidly obese" people who have/had the Binge Eating Disorder.  It's the time of year where deserts are present everywhere you look, candy is around every corner, endless amounts of pie's and cookies.  The temptations, I admit are strong and often times very enticing.  I admit as well that I am nervous.  2 years ago at this time of year I was shoving cookies in my mouth every second I possibly could without getting caught.  Last year I was a Mercy Resident, although I was home for Christmas I didn't do bad for the self-control part! But here, this year.  I am on my own.  I won't be going back to Mercy in a couple weeks where someone will ask me how I "did" over the holidays.  This year it's just me and God.  And God see's EVERYthing. 

I love these Holidays! They mean so much to me, but they also are a huge testing period for me.  If you think about me, I could sure use some prayer over the next few weeks.  There seems to be so much need and I know your prayer list are probably already 10 pages long sometimes, so I totally understand if you don't.  I won't know anyways :) haha!  But please pray that God will give me the courage, strength, self control, and the encouragement needed to pass these trial periods with an A+ grade! I'll take a B too but I'm aiming high.  :)

Friday, November 20, 2009

Consuming Fire Fan Into Flame, A Passion For Your Name

This is my prayer, my plea....

Made popular by: Hillsong

There must be more than this,

O breath of God come breathe within,
There must be more than this,
Spirit of God we wait for You.

Fill us anew we pray,
Fill us anew we pray.

Consuming fire fan into flame,
A passion for Your Name,
Spirit of God fall in this place,
Lord have Your way,
Lord have Your way with us,

Come like a rushing wind,
Clothe us with power from on high,
Now set the captives free,
Leave us abandoned to Your praise.

Lord let Your glory fall,
Lord let Your glory fall.

Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
A passion for Your Name.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Choosing Not To Worry!

Oh it's just plain crazy all the things in this world we can get so worried about! How you are going to pay your next bill? How you are going to get groceries with only $10 to last you till your next pay day that's a week away?  You can worry about your life, your finances, your family, friends, job, if you'll even have one in a couple weeks because of all the lay-offs going around.  You can worry about if your car is going to make it for another 10,000 miles.  Worry is EVERYWHERE.  You look around and sometimes you can just see the look on people's faces and know that they are worrying about something.

Well it's hard but we technically are not suppose to worry...about anything! It's one of the toughest things in the world! How can a person who has $10 in their bank account supposedly buy food and a tank of gas? How can we look at all of these things that mathematically don't add up and we are suppose to have faith that it will work out?

One of my favorite passages in the bible is:

"Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?" - Matthew 6:26 (NIV)


"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." Philippians 4:6 (NIV)

I personally like this verse in the NLT version:

"Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done" (NLT)

So here we have it.  God is telling us literally NOT to worry... about anything! Because He loves us so much and will see to it that our needs are met. Again I say, that is sooo hard.  Looking at my checkbook balance worries me, but if I just let it go and know that God will supply my every need, I have no reason to doubt God. Has there ever been a reason to doubt Him before? He's never done anything wrong...ever!

Just remember (and I am telling my self this), that there ALWAYS is light at the end of the tunnel, whether you see it or not.  Besides, God owns everything! from the earth, to the universe, the surrounding stars, planets, and even every piece of silver, gold, diamonds and jewels.  I think if we need a little loan once in while, I doubt it would even make a scratch in His bank account.   He just loves to bless us.  We just have to trust in Him and have faith that we are more valuable then the birds of the air and that God will help us get through our situation.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

A Special Thanks

As you probably...well hopefully you know! that it is Veteran's Day! I personally have two brothers in the Air Force. So Happy Veterans Day to them! (by the way if you get the chance, please pray for them. Their names are Ryan and Nate).

Ryan and his wife, Liesl, on their wedding day in South Africa

Ryan has been over to Iraq 3 times since his enlistment 8 years ago. Each time in Iraq, it was roughly about 6-8 months of deployment. This last one was the hardest on him because he had to leave his pregnant wife at home. He was itching to get home! The poor guy! But now he is back and from what I've heard, for the last time. They had a beautiful baby girl named Ryelie just over 2 months ago that Ryan was able to be home for. I can't wait to see my new little niece! you see, Ryan and his wife Liesl are stationed in Mildenhal, England. It's quite the trek away I must say. I'll be able to see her and them in April where they'll be in the states for a month! Oh goody!! I can't wait! But anyways, I just want to say a special thanks to my brother Ryan, for serving our country, for being just a great person and brother. I also want to say a BIG necessary thank you to Liesl, who has stood by him even while he was thousands of miles away, She's had to endure 2 of the 3 deployments with out him. (she didn't know him on the first one) But again, Thank you for being a great sister! I can't wait to spend oodles of time together when you come to the states! Us ladies and Mel are going to have some good sister bonding time! :)

Nate on the left, Ryan on the right.

Well, I can't leave Nate out now can I? Haha! :) Nathan has been in the Air force for 5 years I believe. He's currently stationed in Georgia. He hasn't been deployed to Iraq but he has been shipped to places such as Djibouti, Africa and Korea. Just recently my brother texted me and said there is a possibility he might get deployed again but he never responded back when I asked "where?" It sounds like it may be slim, but with the Air Force you never really know what they are thinking, both of my brothers have said, "They own me, the second you sign the papers, you are owned by the Air Force." With that you one just never knows. I'm praying it won't be Iraq. Nate just got married in September to a lovely woman named Vanessa. She's is such a sweetheart. I give them my thanks as well. You both have been of great service to our country, Thank you for all you do!

Nate and his wife Vanessa on their wedding day in Florida

I also want to thank my cousin Chris who is in the Air Force as well serving in Italy. Miss you tons buddy!

And to all of the other men and woman who are out there serving or have served, YOU are GREAT! Thank you so much for helping keep this country a free country. You all have your own stories that make you unique and special. Without your kindness and servant hood, we couldn't be where we are today. I have such respect for you. If I could shake your hand, I would.

Many blessings out there to my readers and all the veteran's out there! I pray God will keep you all safe and well.


Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Bye Bye Phone!

I decided to give up my internet on my phone.  Sadly though in giving up the internet, I also have to give up my lovely mini hand held computer like smartphone... It's a sad day today.  I am greiving my lovely free $350 phone.  May it rest in peace and forgive me for abandonment issues I have caused it....

My dear departed phone...

Thanks to Mel! I have free wi-fi on my iPod Touch! So I can still access the internet sometimes if I hook up to someone's internet or go to Caribou! Hallelujah!

Monday, November 9, 2009

This Weekend

This weekend, I was blessed beyond words. I kind of feel a pinge of guilt though. I'll explain.

My parents came up this weekend and we all went downtown on Saturday. It was fun, a lot of fun. But for me, my mind was not in the right place. We happened to be talking about some of the new technology that people were having, regarding new laptops, iMac's, iPod Touch, Phones, and all the other stuff I seem to drool over. For me, I love technology, but I have never had to money to actually have all that good stuff. My Dad came up showing off his new laptop and I can honestly say I felt envious. I used to have a laptop but it was used and extremely old and out of date. The screen had to be moved back and forth in order the light to come on. Eventually the laptop pretty much broke. The only thing it is good for now is solitaire. Thankfully my uncle is letting me borrow his laptop for the time being. I just was thinking, "Dang, this stinks. How is it that everyone in my family is getting new laptops, iMac's, iPod Touch's, and I have nothing. This has actually happened twice now. The first round was a few years ago, everyone got new laptops in my family, but me. That's when I got that old laptop my other uncle gave me. I am so thankful for that laptop but we all knew it wasn't going to last that long. Anyways... I started to get in that mindset that I wanted one of those but I have absolutely no money to get one. I knew the thinking was wrong. I tried very hard to get rid of those thoughts. I was apologizing again to God, and even apologizing ahead of time because I knew the thoughts would come back. I've been looking at this material stuff now for quite a while, and bringing my selfish requests to God hoping He would fulfill it. (at least I think it is selfish)

Well man was I blown away. After Saturday was winding down and we were all at my sister's home talking and just relaxing. My sister gives me a box that was wrapped. It said, "To Kell, Merry Christmas, Happy Birthday, and thanks for babysitting Wesley (her son)" Inside was a brand new iPod Touch! I think inside I was just so confused! They had been trying to sell it because they already have one and they received this one for free when they purchased their iMac. They actually offered it to me for a good deal but I was looking at my bank account and I had absolutely no money nor will I for awhile because of upcoming bills. I turned it down and was bummed again. But here they GIVE it to me! I was feeling really guilty for those thoughts and I couldn't believe God wanted to bless me with one after being so selfish and envious. Who knows, but I do know. I love it. The iPod is AMAZING.

So I just want give a big thank you to Melissa and Cory Weirauch, you completely surprised me! Thank you so much for the iPod Touch!

Friday, November 6, 2009


This has been an amazing week.  Accomplishing a lot, learning a lot, and all that good stuff.  Well lately as you may have seen in my past blogs, the Lord has been dealing with me a lot about pride.  And Man! May I say, God is not relenting on working this out! It almost feels like I am starting a new job, you know? I am following my manager around as he shows me what has to be done and how it needs to be done.  I just stand next to him as he shows me and try my best to take it all in.  It's crazy!  Well He must be testing me now.  He keeps bringing in more opportunities to act upon all that I have learned.  I have NO idea what His plans are and or what He is doing! But I do know, just stand back and let the master work!  (which is not entirely easy I might add!)

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Guard Your Heart

"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.

Put away perversity from your mouth; keep corrupt talk far from your lips."
-Proverbs 4:23-24

I was reading the proverbs of the day and saw those two verses. Although I have heard them many times before, but I just love them. There is another verse that I can't seem to find right now that just speaks volumes to me. For out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks.

Our hearts are critical to our everyday lives. Not only the obvious, that it keeps our blood pumping so we can stay alive, but also because our hearts define who we are as a person. What ever so a man thinks, so is he. Whatever ill thought we think towards a person, will eventually come out in the open. It's kind of scary to think about really. I know lately, I've been dealing a lot with pride, and this is a big area concerning that. If I start to judge a person and think I am better than that person, then I will continue to keep thinking that. There's got to be a stop somewhere. It leads us to back to Proverbs 4:23, guard your heart! It is so important! If we choose to let things in or let things take over and empower us that are not good for us, we will act upon them.  Take for instance; watching movies where they show a good amount of sex scenes, that stuff gets into you. You've just openly let those scenes into your heart. You may not act upon them, at least right away. But, if you get enough of it, pretty soon it's going to be more tempting than you can bear. Now obviously this is in reference to sex when it's used improperly. When it's in the boundaries of marriage it's obviously allowed. :)

How do we guard our hearts you may ask. Well I decided to do a search on with the key words "guard your heart" and this verse popped up.

"And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
-Philippians 4:7

So there we have it! The peace of God will guard our hearts! Now THAT is comforting! We just have to allow it, we need to let God in so He can do His work in us. The more God we have in our lives, the less room there is for sin.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Pride Comes Before The Fall

Yup, Pride... It's a very big thing. Sometimes our own pride just constantly gets in the way of everything that God has for you. Pride is the very thing that makes you think that everything in the world revolves around you and that you are better than everyone around you, because, "oh! They did that! My gosh! How could they? "I" know "I" would never do that, "I" am so more Christian than they are".  Now we know each one of has thought that at some point, maybe not to that extreme, but in any case, pride is still pride in any shape or form. It is still a sin, a sin that separates us from God. And the thing about pride, since we are so caught up in ourselves, it's often time very hard to get out of.

Don't let that discourage you, because I have to the good news as well. God is STILL God, and He can do anything! He'll help you out of it, He'll show you the compassion you need to see people through God's eyes. To see that every person you come into contact with is hurting in some way, the sins that they do are not any different then the sins that you do.

There maybe different types of sin, but no sin ranks higher or lower then the other in God's book. If you have one sin, just one sin, no matter the sin, on your record, you are technically supposed to be sent to Hell. Thankfully though, God sent his son Jesus as a sacrifice for our sins, so we now have the option of being washed by His blood and making us white as snow.

With Pride, I'll be honest, I deal with it, I deal with a lot of pride. God has not failed to address that to me. I see it everywhere sometimes. I tend to put my self on that "pedestal" and look down on certain people. Thankfully God has put several speed bumps in my path so I was knocked down. It's only then that I can see just how prideful I am.

I'm working on it, working with God to help me. He definitely is a life saver to me! Just recently God was telling me that I need to open up to more people. He was saying that he has put several people in my path for me to talk with but I have so much pride that I don't want to let people know I am struggling with something. I keep thinking I can do this on my own.

At Church last Sunday, we had a message that just shook me. I felt like I was getting nailed to the heart every second of that sermon. It was talking straight to me. I knew immediately I needed to let someone know, I needed to talk with someone. I needed to take a stand against my pride. At the end of the service, I did. I was able to have a heart to heart conversation with a great woman of God. She gave me the words and encouragement that I needed. In the end she spoke words to me that were so on target that your mind goes nuts! I took that first initial step, now; it can only get better from here. I love it when God works on me. Although I admit, it's quite painful, but once He's finished with the construction, you'll be brand new. I can't WAIT until my construction is done!

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